If you know that you'll slip down the hole and nobody catches you, will you still put yourself in a situation where you give wholeheartedly your trust to people and the favour does not return??
I cannot understand why at this moment, I feel sad. I was really excited about the semester but it felt like I had to sacrifice something in return just to have a stable life. I mean like suddenly the phrase "everything is alright" is not even alright. School. Family. Friends. Love life and Church.
I have to accept the fact that this is all part of growing up and that I won't have a lot of time to spend with people. I'm trying my best to calm down and do my part. I'm tired
It sucks to see myself like this and I cannot do anything about it. I know I will be blessed if I treat this challenge as if I just go with the flow without less complaints. I really thank my Mum and Dad, because without them, I'm not sure if I can not face this semester without fears. I also thank my friends despite of the problems we have had, they are always there for me. I know it's also hard to balance my time properly. Less time for them. Less time for myself. But I know the day will come that I won't regret that I have been into this state where I am falling into pieces, I am TORN, and most especially keeping and writing everything in this blog site. For those of you who are reading this post right now, now you know where I release everything..
Well I hope you guys can understand me, guys.. Heehee
P.S> Writing this blog while listening to Coldplay's The Scientist :P XOXO
